An Owl in the Morning

What part of your routine do you always try to skip if you can?

I don’t try, but manage to skip almost anything I’m supposed to do  automatically in the morning.  Every day I have to remember to brush my teeth and comb my hair.  I keep a calendar full of reminders, tasks, routines, and commitments.  Every day I have to encourage myself to do something. 

It started long ago whenever it was that I became a night owl. All my life it seems.  The counterpart to my night owl is comotose in the morning.  

I get my best sleep in the early morning hours. After 2 a.m.  By morning I am in an altered state of murky consciousness far away from where most people are expected to be by, say 5 a.m.  At 4:00 I’m totally satiated in deep deep sleep.  I’m not dreaming as much as astral traveling.

I use an alarm every day.  Some are early. Some are late. When I awake I’m groggy and often disoriented.  The first thing I do is check my calendar. Date, time, task, and plans clearly listed. Then I roll over and nap until the next alarm goes off.  Twenty minutes might do it.

A doctor once told me that night owls make serotonin in the evening. That’s me. The part of my routine I skip is generally morning.  I need time and quiet.   I can function in the morning, but it takes planning and its own pressure.

When I worked every day I had a short fast start.  Less than an hour to get up, dress, make tea, grab lunch, that was prepared the night before, and out the door.  I never forgeot to brush my teeth.

Now I’m retired and mornings last well into the afternoon.  I sleep in – still use an alarm – and stagger to the kitchen for tea.  Then I  read, write, or study something that’s on my mind.  And often feel guilty that all these decades later I’m still comatose in the morning.

Full Owl Moon

Published by periluneonearth

Spiritual practitioner, special Mom, laidback listener ~ leading from within. Wanting to age in a post-carbon future, happy, healthy and engaged, but the madness of humans keeps messing up my flow. Anti-racism, regenerative culture, dismantle patriarchy and its evil spawn. Whatever it takes to create a world that works for everyone.

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